Archive for the 'Thoughts' Category

28
Oct
09

the selfish one!

I’ve been waiting for a very important letter for a month now. It doesn’t seem like is gonna come but I’m not the only one. Millions of mails are being delayed because they are having a strike. A bloody STRIKE!? Yeah…how selfish can they get? Do a freaking strike and let everyone else in the world whom are expecting letters to suffer and wait in agony.

Look….you freaks in the post office of England; tell me what can I do to get my precious mail. Yeah….think hard. There won’t be anything I can do to help it you fuck head. If that’s the bloody case, then go make your boss or your fucking government suffer. NOT ME!!!

Bottom line, you who had made millions of us suffer because of your selfishness have no rights to strike. You are no different from the ones you strike on. If you don’t fucking like the job, get the fuck out you lazy morons.

21
Dec
08

Save Nature. Save Us.

Haven’t wrote here for the longest time. But hey, don’t blame me. I have been on Celtx. I can only write this much in a day. Now that I’m having a bloody writer’s block, I figure is high time to put some words in here. There are couple of screenplays I’m working on right now. 2008 seems to be a movie year for me. I’ve finally worked on the first movie here in Malaysia. Though I was only the 2nd AD, it was a real eye-opener to see how Malaysians worked on movies. To summarize it, is interesting. But there could be a lot of improvements done. Now, let’s not get into the details.

Since August, I’ve started reading. Well, a good habit that I’ve failed to cultivate for the past 27 years of my ignorant life. Now that I’ve started reading, I’ve seen the world in a different light. Okay that’s bullshit. But honestly, I’ve learned quite a bit and truly am proud of my lazy self for being able to get a novel done in 3 days. Work came in between but till now, I’ve been able to finish 3 novels. Not quite me I would say. Well, embrace the new me!! Denise thinks I’m a bookworm now by the way and she’s probably the only living reading this blog.

Greed has come to me. I’ve devoted myself into writing not just 1 screenplay but 3 screenplays. Initially it was 3 then I had a new idea and so is 4. But I dropped the other one because it was too insane to write about it. But that doesn’t mean I won’t try writing it later when I’m done with the rest. So technically is 4. Fine, 3. Whatever. Somewhere back in my head, I know I won’t be able to get all of them done. An acquaintance turned friend of mine wrote 2 scripts and now she’s on her way to Tokyo to talk deals in making those movies. Yay, way to go, Hannah! Back to my screenplay. I’m determined to get 1 done before 2009 catches up. Yeah….less than a month to go. Well, I’m not far, I’m already building up the climax for a brilliant fight. I just need to reveal some truth about the story that would put the audience by the edge of their seats and make a twist at the end so they can all curse me to hell after watching it.

And so my Christmas would be getting it done. Did I mention, I had writer’s block for 3 days now and still counting? Damn, I wish the God of Writings were to come and kick the Devil of Writer’s Block outta my head. Else, I won’t be celebrating any New Year till Jan 10th comes (that is if I get lucky). Want to know about what I’m writing? Haha….not leaking out anything now. All I can say, the movie title is IRIN. Genre should be well fall under, action and drama. And if there’s a new genre saying is environmental friendly or global warming, that’s where I’m exactly at.

Isn’t Global Warming and Environmental Friendly our most talk about topic now? Ahh….nice….! But if you’re still not talking about it and having all your plastic bag frenzy while driving your gas-guzzling Humvee or what GM not, you should be ashamed. I know, I know, I got a RX-7 powered by rotary engine that hates the environment. Well, her engine has blown on me few months back. Yeah, you heard right. BLOWN!! So now she’s in the garage waiting for me to get some money to get her all fixed up. What’s the next engine getting in you ask? Is a 13BT which would exactly mean, a turbo-charged rotary engine. After that, I would be  a proud owner of  half a mile radius hole in the ozone layer. Much like some of guys who still hasn’t got yourself a hybrid engine. Assholes!!

Seriously, help save mother nature. She’s all wounded and bloody now. And if the world comes to an end, we know who to blame. BUSH! Fine, we’ve got GM, Coke, Pepsi, Clinton, Reagan, Najib, Ford, Rotary Engines, Bin Laden, Saudi and all. But come on, if there’s anything we’ve learned from the Americans, it would have been to blame on someone when the shit hits the fan. So let’s point our finger at him. Yeah, that finger (as Michael Moore would have put it). Keep your shoes. You don’t want to get prosecuted for flying yours shoes at him now, do you? God, that dementia!!

So use less plastic products. Recycle. God, how many times do we mention recycle in the whole damn year? Recycle, For Gore’s sake!! And if you don’t know what recycle is, do yourself a favor, Google it (which is what I did 2 minutes ago)!!! Get yourself a hybrid car. Yeah, one that says 50mpg or more (unless is a rotary engine). Switch off the damn light and fan and air con and whatever GE you got if you’re not using it. Off the water tap when you’re not using. Lift the God damn toilet seat up as well – just so your girlfriend or wife doesn’t yell at you while you’re doing your environmental friendly practice.

Take care yo’ll and save bloody mother earth!

27
May
08

One way or another

Trying out something has never been quite my style. Doing it or not at all would spell out my character in a better way. I’m just one of those guys. Doing something and let nature takes its course is not what I am capable of. If I’m some sort in control of it, I don’t see why I need to try it. A guarantee; a promise; an act of instinct with a lot of wildness into it is definitely one of my most prominent trait.

Once I’ve set up my mind in doing something, I go balls out doing it. Making sure the results is what I’m looking for. At the very least, I know I worked hard even if it didn’t work out. You know……an act to make sure you have no regrets and start blaming yourself saying that you could have done better.

I hate wasting time. That’s another thing about me. If doing something seems like a waste of time, I quickly stop it and move on with other events that would use that time better. I feel time is ticking. Life IS short! How would you cherish your time now?

Gonna end this abruptly because I’m feeling lots of crap going on recently. Trying to get all these unhappy things done and over with. Tired of fixing shit while I should be freaking enjoying this short fucking life. Guess I’m at the end of it. Had enough of bullshits.

This is a freaking horrible post. Will delete it soon!

24
Apr
08

See this, read this, baby…

Baby, baby. Look at where we are now. The ground we’re stepping on. The atmosphere that we’re being surrounded. The visibility. The road ahead. Moving along?

Thus far….

I came for you; for us to appreciate this time and space we have for each other. Like what you did a while back.

Even so, I ended up having you to wait for me to complete the walk to the end of the tunnel. I’ve slowed us down, haven’t I? Thought I promised to be at the end of the tunnel waiting for you. I must have changed.

I’m sorry that I’m taking my time here. Looking at this unconventional ladder, I’m trying to work my way up. Thinking that if I get up there to the top, I would have a better vision of where this tunnel will lead to. At least I could make a map and lead us to the place where we want to be.

Does look like is easier to climb when you get up there, doesn’t it?

All these pictures, all these words…..I guess all I’m trying to say is that I’m sorry and I truly am. Just so happen that I love you too insanely much and I still do.

22
Mar
08

Word of Advice

“You wanna do it? You should do it now. Quick.” he said.

” Endure. Just endure for awhile for some months and things will turn around. You’ll see.” he continues.

Haven’t seen a good man for a long time that is willing to give such advice. Now I need to think!